Music, coffee, making lists--my antidotes for stress when I wrote in my journal, "I would like to step off the edge of this intensity and slow down.  I need some space to unfold and breathe." 

I continued reading journal entries for the last six weeks--the craving for stillness and silence underscored on almost every page.  Yet other entries bobbed to the surface--all the ways God's kindness to guide and tutor me parallel my insecurities--the paradox of experiencing jubilation in the midst of circumstancial stressors.

I wrote, "I have stayed in the light.  I have gotten close to the dark edges, but I have not moved out of His encircling presence.  I have used my spiritual coping tools of 'saying no;' 'listening to empowering podcasts,' 'writing down insights,' and 'reading.'  I must work to stay in the light and utilize every coping mechanism available.  Keep it simple.  Pray.  Declare promises.  Do not fret or worry.  Be of good courage.  Relax into the provision.  God is good, and His heart is unchanging toward me."

I am learning peace.  I am learning grace.

God intends refreshment.

I unfurl my faith.

Then this beautiful Scripture emerged for me right in the center of the intensity and allowed space to unfold and breathe.  Created latter rain for my fatigued heart.

But for you, sunrise!  The sun of righteousness will dawn on those who honor my name, healing radiating from its wings.  You will be bursting with energy, like colts frisky and frolicking.~Malachi 4:2 (The Message)

God, I rejoice in your promises, your provision, your safety, your breakthrough, your goodness, your joy, your peace, your favor, your words.  Allow me to reflect the fruit of your spirit in my life.  Let my countenance absorb the radiant light of your face.  Thank you that your majesty trails me, encompasses me.

These next weeks take me further down the pathway of new adventure as I travel with my husband to his home country.  I will have more opportunity to practice peace and grace.  Learn stillness.  

I will return to the page in June.  Your continued interest in reading the posts is a cup of refreshment.  Thank you.